We need to repent... and seek YOUR way in this pastoral search thing... and relationships in our church

August 11, 2006

There are a few things I've been pondering, and I think they are from You.

One is the "internal" resume submitted to the Pastoral Search Team re the senior pastor position. The team seemed unanimous that this candidate (and other internal applicants) were not suitable because of "history" relating to internal hurts and "differences" and "baggage" and incidents in the past... and the "need" to have someone from outside who would be mature and experienced, and, I guess, more objective and all. And that seemed, to me at the time, to make "sense" even though my heart was not settled on it or even my head, but I just put it down to my "unfocused" condition. But now I am wondering if that is more of a "worldly" response... and if perhaps indeed, what You really want is for us all to really, truly, get down on our faces before You and repent of our differences and forgive people for our "hurts" and repent of our bad attitudes and grudges and "expectations" and stuff... and really, truly fast and pray and seek Your will and plan rather than our way of "logical" (or whatever) thinking. We seem to have a lot of "problems" that really cannot be solved, I don't think, by a man, no matter how godly and mature and experienced he may be. It seems to me like our "problems" at root are problems in our relationships - including my relationship - individually and corporately with You, with the family of God, within our own families, with the world and those in it... Oh dear God, what is it You are saying to us? I want to hear Your voice, Lord...